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Blessing
02:46
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I've never really understood anxiety
Aside from the feeling that people have their eyes on me
Every time I step outside
Impropriety of my desires
And tryna make it to what Imma be
I just thought that little shock in my gut
That made a tidal wave in my brain was propping me up
And doing its best to school me for not being tough
That shit is normal, if just a bit informal
Myriad excuses for sudden fear
And feeling useless
The truth is I buried tears
That where the proof is
Carrying stress from years ago
At the same time, recognizing that other people are near me though
So I never blame the innocent but I feed on
The pain, thinking it's keeping me sane...while I bleed on
Every footstep of progress, and digress
To comfort zones that are slowly being demolished
Make it okay
Make it all good, or make it go away
Disappear in broad daylight
Be invisible until it gets easy
But if it never does, then whatever cuz
Walk away right now
How the hell am I supposed to make THIS pipe down
You can't avoid what's always right in front of your eyes
This is a letter to that exceptional human
Smothered in layers of doubt, disappointment, and confusion
Somewhere along the way I thought I was protecting you
But all I did was make it so nobody could connect with you
Now I hear you scream and pretend it ain't me
Defense tactics for making room to complain
The truth is that I'm stuck in the past
With faith in the future
Presently trapped behind glass
Afraid to get hurt when it eventually all breaks
Thinking the solution is a fist wrapped in CAUTION tape
Often make the mistake of false focus to avoid pain
I know that my days are not hopeless
Making forward motion to brand myself
Put down the Eminem so I can Stan myself
Cuz if I really want to learn self devotion
And share it with folks
Then I'm going until I crash into the ocean
No matter the outcome, I'll be my own master
Thundering success or beautiful disaster
Either way, it's the best
When I make my own mess
And clean it up until I find the blessing
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Blessing (instrumental)
02:45
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